Run devil run.~*

[Brianna Varela~*]

I'm just going to try every number from 0 to whenever I get tired.

[Brianna Varela~*]

(You better sail off to the seven seas…
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"I'm going to idol the shit out of her"[/right]

Wouldn't it be ideal if the episode title was not just a lie? Because that's all it truly is, me lying to everyone so they won't vote for me. I'm pretending to have the idol, just for kicks, get them all paranoid, hopefuly turn some people to back me up because they think it's a done deal. Worst case scenario they divide their votes and I get voted out, but that's pretty much the same result if they don't think I have the idol, the only thing that changes is that now I have the chance to use the power of the idol to make more people vote for Julie. I doubt it would work, but if it does it would be super LULZ and I'll die laughing.

I mean this is basically my only option right now, seeing how things got so personal in this game between Julie and me I really don't think I have a choice. I'd much rather do this shit than go down without a fight. Eliza is the only one who knows I don't have it and Rob C, who I <3. I told Russell, Sandra and Brendan that I plan to idol the shit out of Julie and Eliza is gonna talk to Colby but Colby won't turn, that dumbass is so up Julie's ass... I won't complete that out of respect for the readers, they don't ned the image I had in my mind on theirs

Anyways, that's all I have to confess. Still hate my tribe, still love the heroes and still screwed <3.[/ul]

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[Brianna Varela~*]

I MOTHERFUCKING GOT IT!

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[Nate "Sexy Time" Gonzalez]

GJ!

[Brianna Varela~*]

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Eliza went home, I'm livid. Seriously. Of course the plan would fail, I knew it. It was fools proof except... well except I had fools on my side who are chickens. I'm out next unless I magically pull an idol out of my ass Darrah-style. I am all alone, no one is talking to me anymore which is annoying because they don't realize not all of them can ride on the Julie/Jaime express until the very end, seriously. How retarded can you be?! There's just no limit to the retardness of this tribe.

It makes sense for Jaime/Julie to want me out and I guess whoever is on as a third too, but everyone else? No, fucking sheeps from hell I hope they all DIAF's or get SQUAIDS, seriously. The heroes told me that they are throwing the challenge to get rid of Rob C, sadly I gave Rob C the answer to find the idol LOL, he is my friend Animalgoddess so I couldn't not do it, plus I totally sympathize with his situation even if the heroes are all my buddies , well I also gave the pw to Nicole and Lex so I guess one of them would get it because Lex said:
Lex Van der Berghe (2:12:25 PM): [Offline IM sent 28m ago] congrats on staying :-) . i talked to the host last night and i got it out of him that your idol won't be re-hidden until the heroes' idol is found. which means we need to find it, asap, so you can find yours again. so let me know as soon as you can to see if we can figure it out
So, their idol has to be found so mine can re-appear magically. Come on! I need this shit, it would be so lulz to be able to idol Russ or Julie out. It would just be amazing, most likely Russ maybe to show some respect to Julie and give a peace offering?

I tried solving our business yesterday but she was a bitch and shut me down so I guess maybe just continue with the anti-Julie plan? Hm, IDK I do feel bad, it's hard to be in this position and idk if I want to make peace because of the game or because I miss her... blah, I'm not about to get emotional here and talk about my feelings. I need to be a tough cookie if I am to survive the villain's tribe.

So here I am lonely and stranded with a bunch of retards in an island, is it too late to send an S.O.S.?[/ul]

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[Brianna Varela~*]

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"You think with your dick and not your head"[/right]

Unless Rob finds and shares the clue and I can find the idol this is my last confesional. It's sad that my amazing stroyarch is going to end here, especially beause I haven't been half as cunty as I was during Spratly, yet this people seem to think that I was horrid, clearly they are either delusional or they didn't watch me during Spratly.

This just blows, I know I'm right, you know I'm right, hell Julie and Jaime know I'm right but no one is brave or smart enough to do the right thing. They are all just going to join me at pre-jury and I'll be able to say "I TOL YOU SO DUMBASS", this is hard, comming into a game and try to play individual when everyone else is using friendships and pre-made alliances to advance further, which is to be expected when it comes to an AS game but I never thought it was going to be this hardcore. Like of all the game I have played I had never felt more alone and rejected. It's not even because I'm a bitch in the game, this goes beyond and it just sucks.

Part of me can't wait for this whole episode to be over so I don't have to worry and I can erase some people from my life for a definitive ammount of time, but the majority of me really wants to stay, wants to experience the intensity that is to come. I know it's not going to happen so I guess a part of me is really giving up, this is just beyond discouraging and it goes beyond the game. Maybe I do just want it to end and just stop playing this games, they are just so personal... it's not even entretaining.

I don't know, maybe I'm just down because I'm so alone but right now all I want is to have a drink and sleep.[/ul]

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